Obviously, I’ve completely fallen off the writing wagon and my excuse is getting old. I’m planning on continuing to blame Trump but then write anyway because I have to get back to something that brings me joy and keeps me productive.
I’ve done a lot of work around the house but I’ve done no internal work nor writing work. I’ve flitted from here to there and everywhere in between, toying with the idea of going back to school to get my Masters and checking out employment ads on Craig’s List. Heading back to school or heading back to work both begs the question, “What do you want to do with your life?” One would think I would know this by now at my age, but I think having unmedicated ADD has left me with a half-assed/half-finished answer. Like everything else in my life, most things aren’t completely done. I have drawers and projects ‘in process’ all over the house. The things that got done are oftentimes finished by someone else. Sure, I got it started so I should get some credit but then I feel bad about not following-through.
Honestly, I’m considering medication and taking it until I figure out which direction I want to go and then taking it while I make my way to the finish line. I’m exhausted from thinking of the possibilities and wondering if xyz is something I’d like to do. I walk into a plant nursery and ask, “Should I work here?” Heading through the doors of the grocery store, I notice they have an ad for a spot in their bakery, and wonder, “Should I apply for that?” Then I think of how much I enjoy learning about nutrition and imagine myself helping people with their health goals. Do I really want to spend the next four years back in school? It’s all so overwhelming.
One of the pros of writing is that it can be done at any time day or night and I’m on my own schedule; however, that amount of flexibility means I don’t do anything since it feels as if I have no one to answer to for my flakiness. And I don’t think having an accountability partner would work because I know I’d pick someone who would end up bugging me and they’d become an annoyance rather than a positive influence.
What writing hasn’t done for me is given me some kind of income. Maybe that’s what I need to follow-through. I feel that if I received a check for my efforts, I’d actually write consistently so maybe what I need to do is figure out how I can make money off of writing. After all, if I’m not getting paid, isn’t it really just a hobby?
If I truly want to write as a career, and I need to make money in order to faithfully follow-through, then it seems I’ve discovered my next steps after writing this blog post, so thank you for listening. If you have any tips for me on how to get paid for writing, or a book you read that outlined the tips, please share!